Unlike most women who hope to be pregnant, I don’t have to wait for my monthly visitor to not come before I go out an buy a home pregnancy test. On the contrary, I count down the pain staking 14 days from IUI until test results can be produced. In the infertility forum world we call this time 2ww (two week wait aka. the longest most nerve racking wait of your life).
I’ve had a lot of 2ww over the years and have gotten much better at handling them. In fact I would say this last 2ww was my best ever -most level headed, unemotional, and calm about the whole thing. Until day 12 when I started feeling like things weren’t going to go my way.
Resolved to waiting until I was very late before giving into testing, I woke up and tested first thing on day 14. I’m such a good waiter…
After taking the test I set it out of sight and tried to ignore it. Finally, I mustered a one eye peek at the thing, and then quickly looked away. Unsure of what I saw I allowed myself a quick glance which turned into a very long stare. I couldn’t believe it…there were two lines this time.
I know what to do when there is only one, you sit there and cry, and then go tell Dave, and let him hold you while you sit there and cry some more, but two lines…what do you do? I just sat there dumbfounded. Not truly believing it. Could it really be? A smile grew upon my face, as I tried to let myself believe that the day I had dreamed of so many times was really here.
I received this fortune during my 2ww and have held on to it ever since -just for fun.
I had once thought of the perfect little “Dave” way of telling him, but always thought, “I’ll probably be too excited and end up jumping on the bed screaming it on the top of my lungs.” Call it a lack of believing or the early morning hour, but I managed to pull off my idea.
Sometimes I like to change Dave’s desktop background to a silly little drawing I do in paint, it’s dumb really, but I get a kick out of it. So, I took a picture of the positive test, set it as his background, changed his hibernation settings, emailed him to meet me at Cafe Rio for lunch, and left for work.
In Dave’s words, “I was not expecting to see that this morning.”
Telling Mom and Dad
As agreed our anniversary trip would not be ‘a go’ unless we got positive news. So with our good news we took off to Cali without telling anyone.
As we walked through tourist shop after tourist shop I couldn’t believe the lack of souvenirs with some type of Grandma Grandpa slogan on them. I wanted to find something that we could bring home and give to my Mom and Dad that would give them the hint that we we’re expecting, but I could find anything!
When time had just about run out, and I had given up on finding anything, I had the perfect idea –a photo in the sand.
We went to my parent’s for dinner the Sunday we returned home. After dinner, I oddly insisted that EVERYONE (Mom, Preston, Dad, and Grandpa (who luckily was in town) ). Sit down and look at our vacation pictures. Strategically placed at the end of slide show was this picture taken at Coronado Island.
It took everyone a minute, (while I nearly died in anticipation) but eventually Mom read it and got it, and then so did the others. It was excellent!